Dear Diary,

I really started a blog today! I'm in complete disbelief because one I had no idea how easy it was to create your own, and two I have been saying for about 3 years now that I wanted to start a blog but for some reason I never did; I mean I'm pretty sure I know the reasons why but we're pointing out my better qualities right now, lol. But fine let's get into it, the reasons why I haven't been started a blog I mean. As a 27 year old woman I suffer highly from atychiphobia (never seen or heard this word but I found it on Google so hey, sue me if I have you out here confidently yelling out the wrong answers) which is the fear of failure. I am so afraid to fail all the time, probably because I was always a good kid growing up so a lot has always been expected of me, so a lot of the time it's easier to not try at all than to try your best and let everyone down. But from now on I'm trying, because I have way more to gain than to lose from taking a chance like this, and when you think about it how can a blog fail? I mean I could get low site traffic, no views or favorites, no one subscribing, etc. But that isn't what I'm doing this for, I want a place where I can come and lay EVERYTHING out on the table, I want a place that allows others to relate to my pain, triumphs, disappointments & happiness & know they aren't the only ones going through it, whether it be good or bad. I want a place where a person can come see the words they have been struggling so hard to find. Those memes, those poems, those quotes that touch your soul, and you may even screenshot them, or you may go so far as to getting it tattooed onto your skin, I want to leave that type of work on this site, and become one of those type of influential wordsmiths. So thank you to everyone who will read this, even if it will solely be the inspired girl typing this right now, just know either way there is so much more to come, because I'm just trying to have a year like Cardi.

XoXo, the unapologetic lover