Goodbye Fareal? Maybe?

I sit & prepare my monologue about how this time I'm really done,

& say it to myself enough times that I even begin to believe it myself.

I rehearse my goodbye speech like I got the lead role in the school play,

until I can say it backwards, I know it by heart & it is engraved in my memory.

Then you call & I instantly get amnesia,

Oh what you do to me.